GRAVITY

Went looking for
A bit of thunder
I was caught
In this story
From the first page
And you thought
You had me figured out

I was building a bridge
But you set it on fire
While I was daydreaming
You were round the corner
Sharpening the knives

You were my gravity
My reality
Too much too soon
Too little too late
But still
I thought it'll never
Get better than that

I always thought
We'd get to forever
Thought your love
Would take me
Round the world
I was incessantly
Hungry in the night

I'm going to
Rescue myself
From this wildfire
Paint over the cracks
Raise hell
And pray my out of
Cardinal sins
With someone else

SUMMER

The fever is rising
Didn't we have
This conversation
Once before
Still I did what I did
My soul
Is already sold out

A flash of light
Give me all the storms
Of yesterday
I miss his letters
They always
Made me smile
He's still around
Somewhere

An adder bite
The faded pages
Of summers
Long ago
I lost my patience
But then the impossible
Became possible

Now it's time
For every night
To get faster
Every thought
To get wilder
Did we ever even
Love each other

We can always unbreak
The promises
Touch the ground
It isn't steady anymore
I was just somebody
And you were
Everybody's dream

Every time
The mouth opens
The seven seas speak
I could give you a mirror
To see all
Of the disappointments
I can't tell
Who's fooling who

The clock in the tower
Strikes twelve
In the morning mist
I want to live again
Somewhere in Asia
They must know
How I feel

Drifting on the edge
Of the world
Well would you look at that
I made a hurricane
I know what a heart is
But I don't think I have one

I feel nothing
And it doesn't mean a thing
Arrived like a day
Passed like a cloud
There really isn't anything
Left to say 

All the time in the world
Going nowhere
On an autobahn
A headache in Amsterdam
It's good to be back
I swear I saw a smile
When I walked away
London nights 

FIREPROOF

There's no conversation
I've changed the locks
We crashed and burned
In the howling September wind
I didn't want this battle
But it's at my door

Put away your
Box of tricks
I know your next move
Before you even
Think about it
Fact is
You can't break
Something that's
Already broken

I swear
Your witchcraft
Won't work on me
This time
Staring into the distance
Wondering how
It came to this

Now it's all gone
Like dust in the wind
There won't be any roses
On my bones
You were always
Running around
Like there's no tomorrow

This runaway train
You call love
Only got halfway
We ran out of

Tracks of reality

Did you find your way back?
I buried all of my devotion

At the end of the line

It's the last call
The desperate grasp
Of the fingers
Painful goodbyes
On the 4th floor
The door slams shut

Like my shattered heart

I gave you
Everything I could
But it wasn't enough
Can't run on empty
I shouldn't 

Hold my breath 
Oil doesn't mix
With water

I tried my best
You did your worst
The endless promises
The hazy memories
Are like
Walking on flames
But now
I'm fireproof

UNTIL WE'RE DONE

I know it won't last
But my dearest
Until we're done
What an almighty mess
We're going to make

I fell in love
With the sneaking around
Between the rumours
And your wicked smile
There's a whole world
Of chimera
And now
I can't let it go

Round the corner
Where no one can see
I know every outline
Of the scene of the crime
Keep hiding
Behind the fake walls
Until they call cut

I'm on fire under water
The red flags were flying
But I was colour blind
X marks the spot
Behind the torn curtain
Where it all
Went to hell

The stars aligned
Inside the make-believe
In the northern sky
But they didn't shine
Bright enough
The world turns in colour
With you it was always
Black and white

I nearly fell off the edge
Went the long way round
Didn't see
The cold hard truth
Until it had
Frozen me under
And I was
Sinking deeper

Now you're just a ghost
In my heart
I've flown away
From my troubles
So many times
But never
Learned a thing

NEVER

It's never just
One sigh
Takes a blink of an eye
To get tangled in
Your web of fantasy
End up putting out
Imaginary fires

For a long time
It felt like all the songs
About us
Had already been written
But then you went and
Changed the lyrics

I was sailing along
Just fine
But then you
Broke the keel
Threw out the oars
Took the wind
From my sails

I swear
We lost our minds
Agreed-upon delusions
Castles built on
Unthinkable dreams
How do you come back
From infinity

I walked out
When the air
Turned cold
That fateful night
But I never moved on
I keep going round in circles
But none of them lead
Back to you

I admit
Your soul passed
Through mine
Still the best mistake
I ever made
But now something has
Died in me
If you call
I won't answer

TOWARDS THE STORM

The sky was falling
On both of us
I knew you couldn't talk
I was your
Fever dream

Now I've cracked open
It's all there to see
I'm always running
Towards the storm
I've felt pain like
You wouldn't believe

Come over here
Join my religion
Of not believing anything
Other than
You’re better
Than everyone

Watch me take flight
Give me more turbulence
Eyes wide open
Nobody’s sleeping
Tonight
I've seen raging fires
That never go out

Months gone by
Don't look for me
I'm in the wind
Sitting on that silver cloud
Shooting thunder
Straight into my veins

I would give up
Vaults of gold
Just to see you again
The black shadows
Are back in my hallway
Screaming louder than before

Am I living
On borrowed time
Or are we on
The edge of eternity
You had a hold of
My soul

It’s going to take
Everything you’ve got
Time to bring out
Your best shot
Now you can
Keep the thunder
In your sky
I've no use for it anymore

Are we thick as thieves
Or as thin as turncoats
Either way
When hell comes
Rolling in
You tell the best lies

Careful with
What you're breaking
Because it will be
Your own heart
Let the damage be done
Is this what evil tastes like

Long before you
Take the last breath
To end your story
I’ll be out of tears

COLD

It's white and calm
A winter's tale
Nowhere to go
Nothing to do
Put another record on 
 
It's the coldest story
I've ever known

As frozen

As my heart
Day after day
You grow more distant

Those smouldering 

Summer nights
Nothing but 

Faraway memories
Under the midnight sun
You burned your fingers

I know those empty gestures
Aren’t real
The gossip makes me sick
Fame has strangled you
For too long

You’re only as good
As your last act
And yours was golden
But I know you’re
Even better than that

I didn't have the strength
To stay
I didn't trust or believe
The memories are
Tearing me apart

Presents arrive in the post
Unanswered calls
I miss the shadows 
Nobody else saw
I always left my guilt
At the door

I'm done telling you
What you want to hear
Now it's too real
You've lost everything
They think they know
How you feel

All that remains
Are the echoes of our days
The dreams you had
About tomorrow
While you were wishing
It was yesterday

Fascination
It's a strange thing
Head first

Into a dead end

In this fool's paradise

Go make some headlines
That's what you do best

SEPTEMBER

Back on Svinget
In the cool September air
You’re right on the edge
About to break
Like my mind

How much longer can I
Cross my heart
And live the lie
The water’s
Starting to freeze
Just like your promises

The noise is
Screaming in my head
The circus is
Back in town
I don’t want to be a part
Of your foolish illusion

You say we’re good together
So why are you
Losing your cool
There’s no more time left
To play
Who’s got the Queen of Spades
I'm done with this race
You've overplayed your hand

When I ask why
You say
Stranger things have happened
I didn’t think
It would go this far
I thought we were
Intoxicated shooting stars
In the night
But then you chose
My constellation

You've fallen for something
That isn't real
We've gone in
At the deep end
Thousand thoughts a minute
I can’t hear
The heartbeat anymore

Go jump in the sea
Like you always do
Tell me all the excuses
One more time
About how complicated
You are

We're kinetic in the dark
Laughing till twilight
Another coffee from Q
You can't change the facts
And I can't turn back time

Just yesterday
It was the best thing
I got trapped in the undertow
Lost sight
Of everything important
You're living in a dream
No comment

The spin on the trigger
Who are you trying to impress
Wasted talent
That's what I was told
And now I'm hooked

Coming back
For that last strike
Although it's going to
Make me howl
I’ve seen it all before
You’re just a child
In need of a mother

I don't want to be
The big secret
The one nobody knows about
Go to Paris
Get all the adulation
You need

There's no winner
In this game
It was
Some kind of madness
We were tangled
In a delibarate mess
Next to you
Time was motionless

The feeling’s gone
This whole thing
Is beyond recovery
I’d forgotten what it’s like
To teach someone
How to live

Time to end
This rollercoaster ride
Now you’re on your own
You should've listened
When I told you
I know how this song is
Going to end

INGENUE

Got all the money
In the world
But I feel nothing
I missed my connection
I was in the wrong place
I didn't get to 

Have my say

I was going too fast
I should've realised
Now I'm plugged in
Can't see straight
And no
You can't 

Have your say

I could’ve had the world
But before I knew
Like a fool in a palace
I lost it all
I'm better than
All the rest
Why am I always
Second best

They came for me

Hard and fast
I wasn't ready
For a fight
I've given up the crown
Close your eyes
You'll become invisible

She's got half of
Your heart
I've got the other half
I was there first
I’ll always have it

All the fractions of moments
In the middle of the night
The trace of anticipation
It all looks so different
In the morning

I don’t even remember
Driving from the airport
All I remember

Is the cold

And your smile

Why didn’t you
Say something
I would’ve stayed
At least for a while
I was scared too

All the years
I've waited for something
It's all backwards
I'm trying to stand still

Name the time and place
I’ll be there
Just to see your face
I feel like coming home

I'm the only one
I'm the ingenue
A triple rainbow
Lightning in a bottle
My love for you
Will it strike twice

HOW

How did I come here
Who gave me the key
Who slipped it in my hand
So secretly

Two weeks ago
I knew nothing
Now I've learned
To keep my mouth shut

When they believe
There's something better
Round the corner
They don't stop to think

When the world turns grey
And the wine tastes bad
You should've known
I was everything
You could possibly need

I saw you
From a thousand miles
I knew how to make the move
Do you surrender now
The game is over for good

Just keep on lying
Make them believe
I'm running proud
Caught in the spinning wheels
Of fate

I'm twisting backwards
In a room with three walls
Run to the top of the mountain
When I get there
I'll find another

What happened to
All the years
For the first time ever
I wish I could turn back time
Wind it up so tight
Do it all over again

I know what it means
The labour of love
Other guys
They run around
And they can't choose
You chose me

Now it's turned into
The talk of this town
It's six o'clock in the morning
Behind triple locked doors
And I'm going nowhere fast

Flashbulbs blind me
The illusion I live in
Are you ready
For the unperfect storm
It’s part of the game
I can take the pressure

Three of hearts
Hide it back in the pack
Don't ask me
About the future
Because I don't want to know

But what do you know
Well
You must know something
Because they're dying
Of admiration
Have some pity on me

TURN THE KEY

Turn the key
I don’t care where we go
I just want to be there
In your front seat
In the smoke and music

In the dark
We didn’t touch
I’m sure you wanted to
We didn’t kiss
I’m sure I wanted to
What a fool I was

We haven't got a lot of time
It doesn’t matter
I'll swallow every minute
Like it was the last breath
On earth

You grew up
I guess I didn’t
But you're still my ride or die
I don’t care about anything
As long as it’s
Just you and me

On a windy road somewhere
Headed for the sunset
My hand on your neck
Your smile
Right there

I’m coming back to you
Put it in drive
Let’s go
This is where I’ll stay
Till the end of time

INCENDIARY

Pour the petrol
Light the match
Watch the spark
And stand way back

The world
Is about to blow up
We’re in the middle
Deep in the eye
Of the hurricane

You and me
It's incendiary
You and me
It's legendary
You and me

Pour the petrol
Stand back
We’ll be
The talk of the town

Where did you come from?
Where I have I been?
This should've happened
Years ago
Isn't it always the way

You and me
It's incendiary
You and me
It's legendary
You and me
I'm pouring the petrol

You'd better
Stand back
We’re the
Talk of the town

Let them gossip
We know the truth
Let them live their lies
Say hi to your girl
She'll never know
What you mean to me

You and me
It's incendiary
You and me
It's legendary
You and me

I poured the petrol
You stood back
And survived
We were
The talk of the town

SAY SOMETHING

When I think of you
With someone else
It makes me so sad
Maybe you should know
How I feel now

But truth be told
There’s no way
It could end well
No happy endings here

They say
Don't play with thunder
But I've got nothing to lose
I want to be your story
When there's nothing
Left to tell

There you are
Across the sea
I made my bed so
I must lie in it
I know I have to let go
Like I did
All those years ago

Except this time I know
What I’m letting go
I’ve got no excuse
To ruin it for everyone

I had my chance
Didn’t take it
I always think
I can fix it
But sometimes
You just can't

I went looking
For the world
What did I find
Nothing but sorrow
And heartache

I want what I want
Now I'm in your bed
When you look at her
Do you see my face
I'll show you
My true colours

CUTTING CORNERS

We’re cutting corners
Down a road
We both know so well
I've always loved you, you fool
That smile of yours
My favourite thing
In the world

Laughing so much
We can't breathe
Down by the lake
The sun's going down
These are the nights
I'll always remember

Sneaking a cigarette
When no one’s looking
Walk in the woods
There’s no need
To say anything

Road trips nowhere
It’s raining so hard
Favourite song on the radio
Who can sing the loudest
You know all the words

I’ve always been there
In the shadows
When you were sad
I didn’t know how
To comfort you

There’s an empty space
Next to the fire
Where you used to be
Just the last embers now

First we laugh
And then we cry
I want to come home
The world
Hasn’t been kind

Just an empty space
Where the laughter
Used to be
Empty space
For all my thoughts
Of you

BOXED IN

I've been up and down
Middle ground
Round and square
In and out
Green-eyed monster
Sad and cruel

This is it
Been there, done that
So have you
First you trust
And then you cry

Forget it all
As the years go by
Start again
With someone new
With all the hope
Your heart once knew

Burn the bridges
And smash the mirrors
Give me seven years
I can take it

Do you want to
Cross the line
I'm never coming back
There are some storms
You just can't weather

I was only looking for
A hand to hold
Now I'm boxed in, cold
A rusty hook in my heart
Fire that burns
Through the rain

A billion dreams
Fell into my lap
That one golden day
Before it all
Turned into pain
Paid my dues
And learned to lose

I wanted to be
The captain
Of this ship
I knew why
Didn't know how
Blue ring on my finger
To remind me

Sometimes the stars
Shine during the day
Even kings
Get wet in the rain
If you had a million pounds
Would sad songs
Sound different

I've ran out of
Cheeks to turn
I sat on the roof
Watched the day go by
Now my wishes are bullets

My cold cold heart
I never look before I leap
Hands up, I admit
This time
I got it all wrong

RIGHT HERE 

Don't bother looking
For the devil
Cos he's right here with me
Laughing in the shadows
He loves what I've become
Six months gone in a blink
 
Ran out of excuses
The bottle's empty
Every sip was evil
Drank it anyway
Dead behind the eyes

Tried to replace you
With everything else
I know living with you
Would be unforgiving
There's no love there

This is madness
No risk assesment
This thing is
Too close to home
Too close to the bone

I'm just a heathen
Blood and breath
But I won't break
Push me over the edge
I won't falter

I know I want it
But don’t know why
I would sail this ship
Right into the rocks
Because I don’t care
About anything anymore

Next time I see you
I’ll pretend everything’s alright
I don’t need to make amends
The alibis start crumbling
I’m trying to keep a straight face
Tripping on the lies

Can you live
With the aftershock
They’re closing the border
Better get out now
Get on the last flight

I’ll stand right here
Trying to justify it all
I’ve got the best seat
In the house
There’s about to be
A tidal wave

The safety’s off now
No bullet proof vest
Don’t ask questions
I haven’t got the answers for
Go put flowers on her grave
I’ll smirk right round the corner

I'll be your original sin
I'll be your snake in the grass
I'll be your tinder and the spark
I'll light up your sky
I'm here to rock the boat
I'm here to cut your chains

You couldn’t put up a fight
But you know
I’m glad you're still here
Icy cold haze
Nothing’s changed
Except everything hurts now

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