31.10.22
The sky was falling
On both of us
I knew you couldn't talk
I was your
Fever dream
The last thought
In your train of confusion
Now I've cracked open
It's all there to see
I'm always running
Towards the storm
I've felt pain like
You wouldn't believe
Come over here
Join my religion
Of not believing anything
Other than
You’re better
Than everyone
Watch me take flight
Give me more turbulence
Eyes wide open
Nobody’s sleeping
Tonight
I've seen raging fires
That never go out
Months gone by
Don't look for me
I'm in the wind
Sitting on that silver cloud
Shooting thunder
Straight into my veins
I would give up
Vaults of gold
Just to see you again
The black shadows
Are back in my hallway
Screaming louder than before
Am I living
On borrowed time
Or are we on
The edge of eternity
You had a hold of
My soul
I was walking
Through flames
For fun
It’s going to take
Everything you’ve got
Time to bring out
Your best shot
Now you can
Keep the thunder
In your sky
I've no use for it anymore
Are we thick as thieves
Or as thin as turncoats
Either way
When hell comes
Rolling in
You tell the best lies
Careful with
What you're breaking
Because it will be
Your own heart
Let the damage be done
Is this what evil tastes like
Long before you
Take the last breath
To end your story
I’ll be out of tears
Out of love
23.9.22
It's white and calm
A winter's tale
Nowhere to go
Nothing to do
Put another record on
It's the coldest story
I've ever known
As frozen
As my heart
Day after day
You grow more distant
Those smouldering
Summer nights
Nothing but
Faraway memories
Under the midnight sun
You burned your fingers
I know all those
Empty gestures
Aren’t real
The gossip makes me sick
Fame has strangled you
For too long
I'm done hiding
You’re only as good
As your last act
And yours was golden
But I know you’re
Even better than that
I didn't have the strength
To stay
I didn't trust or believe
The memories are
Tearing me apart
Presents arrive in the post
Unanswered calls
I miss the shadows
Nobody else saw
I always left my guilt
At the door
I'm done telling you
What you want to hear
Now it's too real
You've lost everything
They think they know
How you feel
All that remains
Are the echoes of our days
The dreams you had
About tomorrow
While you were wishing
It was yesterday
Fascination
It's a strange thing
Head first
Into a dead end
In this fool's paradise
Go make some headlines
That's what you do best
2.9.22
SEPTEMBER
Back on Svinget
In the cool September air
You’re right on the edge
About to break
Like my mind
How much longer can I
Cross my heart
And live the lie
The water’s
Starting to freeze
Just like your promises
The noise is
Screaming in my head
The circus is
Back in town
I don’t want to be a part
Of your foolish illusion
You say we’re good together
So why are you
Losing your cool
There’s no more time left
To play
Who’s got the Queen of Spades
I'm done with this game
You've overplayed your hand
When I ask why
You say
Stranger things have happened
I didn’t think
It would go this far
I thought we were
Intoxicated shooting stars
In the night
But then you chose
My constellation
You've fallen for something
That isn't real
We've gone in
At the deep end
Thousand thoughts a minute
I can’t hear
The heartbeat anymore
Go jump in the sea
Like you always do
Tell me all the excuses
One more time
About how complicated
You are
We're kinetic in the dark
Laughing till twilight
Another coffee from Q
You can't change the facts
And I can't turn back time
Just yesterday
It was the best thing
I got trapped in the undertow
Lost sight
Of everything important
You're living in a dream
No comment
The spin on the trigger
Who are you trying to impress
Wasted talent
That's what I was told
And now I'm hooked
Coming back
For that last strike
Although it's going to
Make me howl
I’ve seen it all before
You’re just a child
In need of a mother
I don't want to be
The big secret
The one nobody knows about
Go to Paris
Get all the adulation
You need
There's no winner
In this story
It was
Some kind of madness
We were tangled
In a delibarate mess
Next to you
Time was motionless
The feeling’s gone
This whole thing
Is beyond recovery
I’d forgotten what it’s like
To teach someone
How to live
Time to end
This rollercoaster ride
Now you’re on your own
You should've listened
When I told you
I know how this song is
Going to end
6.6.22
Got all the money
In the world
But I feel nothing
I missed my connection
I was in the wrong place
I didn't get to
Have my say
I was going too fast
I should've realised
Now I'm plugged in
Can't see straight
And no
You can't
Have your say
I could’ve had the world
But before I knew
Like a fool in a palace
I lost it all
I'm better than
All the rest
Why am I always
Second best
They came for me
Hard and fast
I wasn't ready
For a fight
I've given up the crown
Close your eyes
You'll become invisible
She's got half of
Your heart
I've got the other half
I was there first
I’ll always have it
All the fractions of moments
In the middle of the night
The trace of anticipation
It all looks so different
In the morning
I don’t even remember
Driving from the airport
All I remember
Is the cold
And your smile
Why didn’t you
Say something
I would’ve stayed
At least for a while
I was scared too
All the years
I've waited for
Something elusive
It's all backwards
I'm trying to stand still
Name the time and place
I’ll be there
Just to see your face
I feel like coming home
Because what I went
Round the world looking for
It's right where I left it
I'm the only one
I'm the ingenue
A triple rainbow
Lightning in a bottle
My love for you
Will it strike twice
How did I come here
Who gave me the key
Who slipped it in my hand
So secretly
Two weeks ago
I knew nothing
Now I've learned
To keep my mouth shut
When they believe
There's something better
Round the corner
They don't stop to think
When the world turns grey
And the wine tastes bad
You should've known
I was everything
You could possibly need
I saw you
From a thousand miles
I knew how to make the move
Do you surrender now
The game is over for good
Just keep on lying
Make them believe
I'm running proud
Caught in the spinning wheels
Of fate
I'm twisting backwards
In a room with three walls
Run to the top of the mountain
When I get there
I'll find another
What happened to
All the years
For the first time ever
I wish I could turn back time
Wind it up so tight
Do it all over again
I know what it means
The labour of love
Other guys
They run around
And they can't choose
You chose me
Now it's turned into
The talk of this town
It's six o'clock in the morning
Behind triple locked doors
And I'm going nowhere fast
Flashbulbs blind me
The illusion I live in
Are you ready
For the unperfect storm
It’s part of the game
I can take the pressure
Three of hearts
Hide it back in the pack
Don't ask me
About the future
Because I don't want to know
But what do you know
Well you must know something
Because they're dying
Of admiration
Have some pity on me
Turn the key
I don’t care where we go
I just want to be there
In your front seat
In the smoke and music
I'm still playing
The same old game
Still in love
After all this time
The rules have changed
But I don't care
In the dark
We didn’t touch
I’m sure you wanted to
We didn’t kiss
I’m sure I wanted to
What a fool I was
We haven't got a lot of time
It doesn’t matter
I'll swallow every minute
Like it was the last breath
On earth
You grew up
I guess I didn’t
But you're still my ride or die
I don’t care about anything
As long as it’s
Just you and me
On a windy road somewhere
Headed for the sunset
My hand on your neck
Your smile
Right there
I’m coming back to you
Put it in drive
Let’s go
This is where I’ll stay
Till the end of time
Pour the petrol
Light the match
Watch the spark
And stand way back
The world
Is about to blow up
We’re in the middle
Deep in the eye
Of the hurricane
You and me
It's incendiary
You and me
It's legendary
You and me
Pour the petrol
Stand back
We’ll be
The talk of the town
Where did you come from?
Where have I been?
This should've happened
Years ago
Isn't it always the way
You and me
It's incendiary
You and me
It's legendary
You and me
I'm pouring the petrol
You'd better
Stand back
We’re the
Talk of the town
Let them gossip
We know the truth
Let them live their lies
Say hi to your girl
She'll never know
What you mean to me
You and me
It's incendiary
You and me
It's legendary
You and me
I poured the petrol
You stood back
And survived
We were
The talk of the town
When I think of you
With someone else
It makes me so sad
Maybe you should know
How I feel now
But truth be told
There’s no way
It could end well
No happy endings here
They say
Don't play with thunder
But I've got nothing to lose
I want to be your story
When there's nothing
Left to tell
There you are
Across the sea
I made my bed so
I must lie in it
I know I have to let go
Like I did
All those years ago
Except this time I know
What I’m letting go
I’ve got no excuse
To ruin it for everyone
I had my chance
Didn’t take it
I always think
I can fix it
But sometimes
You just can't
I went looking
For the world
I fell
Right at the start
What did I find
Nothing but sorrow
And heartache
I want what I want
Now I'm in your bed
When you look at her
Do you see my face
I'll show you
My true colours
We’re cutting corners
Down a road
We both know so well
I've always loved you, you fool
That smile of yours
My favourite thing
In the world
Laughing so much
We can't breathe
Down by the lake
The sun's going down
These are the nights
I'll always remember
Sneaking a cigarette
When no one’s looking
Walk in the woods
There’s no need
To say anything
Road trips nowhere
It’s raining so hard
Favourite song on the radio
Who can sing the loudest
You know all the words
I’ve always been there
In the shadows
When you were sad
I didn’t know how
To comfort you
There’s an empty space
Next to the fire
Where you used to be
Just the last embers now
First we laugh
And then we cry
I want to come home
The world
Hasn’t been kind
Just an empty space
Where the laughter
Used to be
Empty space
For all my thoughts
Of you
I've been up and down
Middle ground
Round and square
In and out
Green-eyed monster
Sad and cruel
This is it
Been there, done that
So have you
First you trust
And then you cry
Forget it all
As the years go by
Start again
With someone new
With all the hope
Your heart once knew
Burn the bridges
And smash the mirrors
Give me seven years
I can take it
Do you want to
Cross the line
I'm never coming back
There are some storms
You just can't weather
I was only looking for
A hand to hold
Now I'm boxed in, cold
A rusty hook in my heart
Fire that burns
Through the rain
A billion dreams
Fell into my lap
That one golden day
Before it all
Turned into pain
Paid my dues
And learned to lose
I wanted to be
The captain
Of this ship
I knew why
Didn't know how
Blue ring on my finger
To remind me
Sometimes the stars
Shine during the day
Even kings
Get wet in the rain
If you had a million pounds
Would sad songs
Sound different
I've ran out of
Cheeks to turn
I sat on the roof
Watched the day go by
Now my wishes are bullets
My cold cold heart
I never look before I leap
Hands up, I admit
This time
I got it all wrong
Don't bother looking
For the devil
He's right here with me
Laughing in the shadows
He loves what I've become
Six months gone in a blink
Ran out of excuses
The bottle's empty
Every sip was evil
Drank it anyway
Dead behind the eyes
Tried to replace you
With everything else
I know living with you
Would be unforgiving
There's no love there
This is madness
No risk assesment
This thing is
Too close to home
Too close to the bone
I'm just a heathen
Blood and breath
But I won't break
Push me over the edge
I won't falter
I know I want it
But don’t know why
I would sail this ship
Right into the rocks
Because I don’t care
About anything anymore
Next time I see you
I’ll pretend everything’s alright
I don’t need to make amends
The alibis start crumbling
I’m trying to keep a straight face
Tripping on the lies
Can you live
With the aftershock
They’re closing the border
Better get out now
Get on the last flight
I’ll stand right here
Trying to justify it all
I’ve got the best seat
In the house
There’s about to be
A tidal wave
The safety’s off now
No bullet proof vest
Don’t ask questions
I haven’t got the answers for
Go put flowers on her grave
I’ll smirk right round the corner
I'll be your original sin
I'll be your snake in the grass
I'll be your tinder and the spark
I'll light up your sky
I'm here to rock the boat
I'm here to cut your chains
You couldn’t put up a fight
But you know
I’m glad you're still here
Icy cold haze
Nothing’s changed
Except everything hurts